Toddle.

I have a toddler. How the heck did this happen? He TODDLES. Like, he mostly doesn’t crawl anymore. And he says things. Not a lot of things, and not very well, but he’s able to sign yes and say no, can ask for boob or monkey noises, can say “diaper” and sign it… and he is loving imitating things, like using a fork, or my keyboard. TODDLING WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE.

Oh, and he also climbs. And puts things inside other things. And on other things. And knows that if he can get people to let him pick up their shirts, they all have bellybuttons. Which are fun to stick fingers in.

Cas managed to teach Miles to make dolphin noises, like he needed any help.

A step forward

So something good… Was about to take a nap and the phone lit up (I had the ringer off) and it was my doctor’s office… after they TOTALLY blew me off yesterday (backup doctor), MY doctor said she wanted me in there and they had a cancellation at 11:40. No nap… (sob) but I got my cpap mask replaced before the doc visit, went shopping at target and got some cute clothes for my boy for the science fiction convention we’re going to this weekend (always be batman), and then to the doctor’s office… where… she removed FOUR stitches, refilled my pain meds, said my last urine culture was perfectly clear and that I could do 7 days of abx rather than 10 (since it was clear before we started) and that my tissues are healing beautifully.

She also said that my intuition seemed spot on about what was going on with my body, and that after seeing my cervix during the surgery, she’s not surprised it was so sensitive to every little thing.

I ♥ her. She *heard* me. She figured out what the problem was and FIXED it. She listened and did not dismiss what I was saying. It was just good on so many levels.

I did eventually get a nap later.

And I’m a little sore from getting the stitches removed but it feels like normal “Oh, I just got stitches out” sore, not the deep feeling of WRONG that comes when those dang stitches pull.

Bored now.

The UTI is not gone. I did 1 week of macrodantin and 1 week of keflex and the fucker is still there. It is fine while I am actually on the antibiotics and the minute I stop my head swims and I get spacy and 12-20 hours later my pee starts burning.

Fuck this. SO DONE. It is of course a weekend and the gatekeepers will not let me talk to my doctor. Which pisses me off. SO FUCKING DONE.